“It's all about you.”

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What if I said I wanted my own destiny in my hands?

No one would bother.

And what if I said I wanted the entire world at my feet?

No one would listen.

And what if I said I wanted everything?

No one would care.



Transgression of humanity into something more deceptive is probably, to be honest, a way of life.

The road to self-discovery is one that is extremely annoying but fulfilling at the same time because it does not give you answers or solutions right at the start but rather forces you to experiment and play with ideas that might seem weird or unthinkable and even so people might not entertain the thought of wanting to know more about oneself and simply go through the motion and get through life as it is since it is so much more comfortable and thus we are doomed to having such idle personalities more often than not but nothing can be done about it since we are humans and humans are innately selfish and will thus always look for themselves first before anything else which brings me to another point that we are all afraid of meeting new people and talking to them because we do not know what is going on behind that face of his or her and what he or she is thinking because he or she might be plotting against you in some way or even thinking that Oh man I am simply wasting my time with this guy or girl but whatever makes one happy goes and you know what I mean because ultimately we ought to live a life that does not contain any regrets for I suppose it is the only driving force that keeps us going all this while but perhaps I may be wrong since some people may value other things above living a fruitful life such as having good friends or living in a kickass house or meeting the right partner in life but I guess nothing matters now since we all kick off from the same start line at the beginning of life and different people will have different progress somehow and I am somehow pretty envious at how things are panning out for a lot of my friends who are enjoying things and having everything they need at the moment but I guess nobody knows who I really am since I have not been expressing myself properly so it is my business to end up in such a state as of now but all I can say is that I am living a life of no regrets now and I guess that is the only important thing because I have not come this far to die now nor will I sit down and wait for it all to end as all I am looking forward to in life currently is simply the sunrise the next day so bring it on.

It's perfectly fine to fade into nothingness.

Just don't forget that we were once here, that's all.

It's funny how it takes so long to build a reputation and maintain it, whereas all it takes is a blink of an eye to crush it.

What do us, as individuals, think about ourselves? What do we see ourselves as? A solitary being landed here on this planet out of coincidence? A partner of someone else? A jigsaw piece to a more cohesive unit such as a circle of friends? Notions as such are blurred, because we don't care anymore. Not that it matters, but our identity as individuals are no longer questioned as often as before.

Do we still remember ourselves in the past where we were of a certain character? Able to communicate effectively, flamboyant, always giving something of use back to society or even our social circle because we weren't afraid. Now 10 or 15 years down the road, everything changed. An inner circle forms within the social circle, tempers run thin, and we are always looking behind our backs because anything can happen.

Have we lost to our own memories? Or to phrase it differently, lost memories of ourselves? It doesn't take much to be a ghost of ourselves, to be honest. Question is, do we really want to stay as such for the long term?