“It's all about you.”

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I never knew landing on the wrong butt after doing a sliding tackle in soccer could cause so much distress.

I used to blog everyday when I was in secondary school, I can't see why that has changed though.

School has been monotonous for quite sometime now, and it's not exactly like JC1 when we would still be partying out 3 weeks after the release of Midyear results, been coming home early these few days and doing stuff alone with nothing much to look forward to.

Haven't got back a lot of Common test 2 results yet but I don't have a very good feeling about it. Doesn't it just break your heart when you go to almost every length working for that grade in exams, but hopes just come crashing down the moment you leave the exam hall when it doesn't feel right? Sometimes you wished you could just exhibit your best self during that specific 3 hours or so but no, your best form always appear AFTER the paper's over. I wished I were stronger.

I've noticed that I've been very tense lately myself, thanks a lot to all who pointed it out. But I just have no idea how to take away this pressure because the heat of a string of major exams coming up is starting to get to me, and I'm so worried that I'll just step into that pit as soon as I let down my guard.

I just don't know how to differentiate what should or should not be ever since that happened, I'll probably never be like who I was 4 years ago.

I'm sorry, you, for being so selfish the other day, I probably shouldn't have been so hasty even though I wasn't exactly used to the sudden change. Thank you for reassuring me, and I promise to do my best and adapt.

MY EYEBAGS ARE GETTING SO BIG THERE ARE NOW 3 BLACK HOLES IN THIS UNIVERSE INSTEAD OF 1 OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE RELINQUISHING THE 10PM SLUMBER CAN DO SO MUCH TO ME AND EVEN IT IS JUST SLEEPING 1 HOUR LATER MY WHOLE LIFESTYLE IS PERMANENTLY CHANGING WHAT ON EARTH IS WRONG WITH MY BODY WOULD IT HURT IF I WAS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE AND BEING ABLE TO TAKE ONLY 4 OR 5 HOURS OF SLEEP A DAY AND NOT FEEL TIRED AT ALL OMG THIS IS SOME SERIOUS BULLSHIT

Thank you.

For lifting that weight out of my heart.

I think it's time to exorcise some personal demons.