“It's all about you.”

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Tried dunking Marie biscuits in a fresh tub of Nutella today, worked out pretty well.

Now I can't eat my dinner at all.

In sheer desperation, I finally looked up a word which I-have-heard-of-for-a-long-time-but-didn't-bother-to-check in the dictionary.

migraine (n): severe recurring type of headache, usually on on one side of the head or face, often accompanied by nausea and/or disturbance of the eyesight.

Sorry, I know my English is incompetent, I suppose it's a more profound way of mentioning a headache. But whoopee, I was right about this word being applicable to me today.

Rest in peace, my dear Wacko Jacko, I'll do more Thriller dances to spread your legacy.

What's a family without trust?

It's simply like a human without a backbone, everything collapses from within.

Just live with it and walk away.

Sorry readers, I know the lack of more intellectual posts have been most frustrating for some of you, but I just can't seem to kick into gear this holidays over what to blog and all. But it's about time I did.

My sister opted to treat the whole family to Father's Day lunch today out of the blue, had to go all the way down to Turf City for heaven-knows-what. Turned out to be another bloody seafood restaurant, what an absurd waste of time. ):

Everything they ordered were stuff that I didn't eat, so my sister's boyfriend was like quite sad for me and asked if there was fried rice. Lucky there was omg, I ended up eating the whole plate. I'm sorry that I ate his share because the rice was meant for two people's servings.

Don't you just dislike the feeling of being the youngest around in the family, and the next youngest person is still 8 years older than you? I'm sure there's very little to talk about unless you get along well with your family members, which so sadly doesn't happen to be the case at all.

My sister ended up talking about childhood days, something which her boyfriend and my mum had much to add into. How she was in NPCC as well in her secondary school life, how she was so intimidating that she got guys running off scared because she can kick their asses so bad.

Conversations got deeper and I suddenly realised that they were indirectly talking to me. They were talking about what I should be today.

When my sister was still at school, she was pretty big, NCO for NPCC and able to kick asses and all, but I'm looking at myself today and I realise that I'm a just a nobody.

Sure, I have tried my hand at wanting to step up to much, applying for leadership positions and giving my best shot at whatever I do. But things just don't go rosy overnight, do they? Plenty of applications get turned down, existing leaders will go for impressions instead of experience and such and hard work gets forgotten over years.

But must we simply sit here and wait for it all to end?

Sure, we don't get recognised for what we do, especially when we are nobodies, but at least we are giving a shot to prove to the world what we are able to do, and possibly catch the eye of those whom are watching down upon all of us. It is probably the nobodies who can carry out their stuff without pressure, without fear and probably have nothing to lose at all. I'm sure one day, the nobodies will get there eventually.

Yes, I'm a nobody. But I'm proud to be one.

Welcome back, boss.

OMG I can't believe it's the 18th already.

Studies have been more or less effective, minus those occasional weird-feeling days that kind of render me feeling so off that I just can't get myself to start the engine. But all in all, I'm okay.

Been holing myself up a lot, hiding in places to work all these days, telling myself not to get distracted by stuff around me and all. Just hope it's working because there isn't much time left, honestly. Of course, colours fade to grey whenever I think of how much time I have wasted as a result of my wilfulness previously, but I suppose what's done is done. Talk about having something meaningful to do.

I wish Nikki was still here dammit.

Your future hinges upon this fight.

Confucius say:

It doesn't matter how slow you go in life, provided that you do not stop.

Too right.

Dreams never die, do they? After all, they are the things that keep us going in life.

So don't stop dreaming.

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you that I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

I'm sorry Nikki, I didn't expect it to turn out this way.

I will miss you. Goodbye.

I don't want to be reminded of all that in the past.

I've been trying what I can, haven't I? I'm doing my part, aren't I?

But why rake up the past, out of nowhere in particular?

It's not my fault that he's like that, and I've said that many times, he chose his own path way before I was born. My presence doesn't affect what he is today, and just because his character is such doesn't mean that I'm on the same track either. What an unevaluated remark that was.

I wished everyone wasn't so broken in their own ways, we wouldn't be so unhappy.