“It's all about you.”

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One chooses what one has to choose. There are so many difficult decisions one has to make to move forward.

Being solitary can be beneficial at times, but somehow detrimental at others. How does one find solace in whatever he or she does, without feeling alone or empty?

Walking on a path where it dissects into two, how does one differentiate which one to pick? How does one know what the path brings him or her? How does one trust his or her decision-making if one does not know what is in store for them?

I don't know. I simply stand at the dissection, waiting for an answer to come.

Every song strikes a different emotion everyday, depending on the situation. I sit in my room at my study table this afternoon, listening to Colours Of The Wind, and look at rain fall down even with the sun up.

Even Earth knows how to stay upbeat when it cries. I think I will be able to do the same.

I have just made the biggest decision in my life, and I will never forget it.

Oh man, another load of homework in a week where I thought I could take it easy and simply read through my books and notes and what not. Gahh. GP Comprehension is said to be the 'best Teacher's Day present you guys can ever give to me this Friday', courtesy of Mr Dax Young. Thou' shall stay up late again for a few days running this week trying to do work then.

I need to find a way to keep out of sight from my parents! Dammit, or they will start nagging till the ends of the earth again. And the niggling feeling of claustrophobia when I get to my room makes me want to burn all the cupboards there or something. Gahh.

I need my mojo back to work properly! Zzz.

'Take everything easy today without feeling guilty.'

Yeah right! I'm already sweating over not looking at any of my notes today. Gahh. I think horoscopes might have an inverse effect on me, just like coffee. Dammit.

Oh man, I enjoy non-lyrical music so much. Enables any kind of thoughts and feelings to come out in different situations, no fixed barriers. Bahahaha, it's such a wonderful feeling to allow thoughts to flow freely.

Heard of Fisherman's Horizon from Final Fantasy 8? One of my favourites. Relives days spent in school with no worries, absolute freedom to do what one pleases, and what not. How I wished I was a video game character or something, then I would be running around like a dumbass in some game like Final Fantasy and shouting 'I KILL YOU!' at every monster in a random battle or something. How wonderful.

Wonderful's the word. Yahh, it is. For today.

We should all give people some privacy when it's required.

I screwed Chemistry test up! Even with the weekend dedicated to studying Chemistry. I don't believe this.

I don't like the fact that everything that I have squeezed into my head just doesn't come out right under exam conditions. It gets demoralising. I have never seen myself get an acceptable grade for the last year and a half, so to speak.

Rahh. I know I'm hitting overdrive very, very soon though, but there's just no way to test my skills anymore with the absence of tests until Promos. There's no chance to gauge myself anymore, and honestly speaking, I'm just that afraid. Gahh.

Of course, I'm still not breaking. I'm therefore counting on something that is worth much more than anything else in the world to get me by this stage.

Bahh. Whole day of books. But I shall gain momentum in time. Bahaha.

I enjoy places with air-con. Explains why I roam shopping centres and MRTs! Just two of the places I was on today, minus the fact that both of them can waste your time so badly. One of them renders you speechless while you walk past its shops and gazing at the wonder items they are showcasing, while the other renders you useless while you are sitting on the seat or standing in some random corner and just staring into space or out of the window while the vehicle moves forward! Gahh, how wonderful things seem to be when you just think about it.

Tampines Library was my third hideout today, having no places to sit down properly, and having to settle for some corner in the Children's section. And I don't believe I can't do Ionic Equilibrium! Gahh. Beware, SC, stupidity will get to you in due course if you are not careful! ):

I just got super bo liao after reading Ionic Equilibrium and Ksp that I just looked at my phone camera for 10 seconds.



Gee, perhaps I should do more of such dumbass things when I got time. And I don't understand why there are TWO videos stuck up there when I just put one, so bear with Blogger. Bahahahahaha.

That shall be the least of my worries.

Of course, give me a break from it if it's permitted too.

Brilliant! I realise I can blog in school! Well done, my dear friend SC, you have just made a breakthrough in your world that has been so dominated by your parents!!!! Bahahahahahahaha.

Oh man, I'm starting to feel the heat from studying Maths for almost half the day yesterday. So many things I don't quite understand! Add the fact that my mum likes popping in and nagging at every random thing that happens in the house to the equation and tada, one frustrated SC ready to go boom-boom when you press a button on your remote control! Bahahahahahaha. I think I'm going crazy with my use of 'Bahaha', but I just enjoy using it, so who cares? Bahahahahahahahaha.

It's starting to get so damn cold here in the lab. Gee. I want my normal life back! Whole, complete days where you can just sit around and watch TV with your can of Pepsi by your side, where you can sip from a straw or something. Gahh, that reminds me how badly I want a Pepsi now! Dammit. ):

I shall try to come here when I can. Of course, night times are a no-no, because my WHOLE family will be at home and they will be passing by the strategically-placed computer, regardless of whatever route they take to whatever place in the house. Bahh. I'm confined to my room to do whatever I have to do. It's so small! With my brother's bed laid down next to my study table, and my bed next to his, and a cupboard in front of the two beds, and a TV just behind my study table. So cramped! I feel so claustrophobic. Gahh.

But you all wait, because I'll be, the next great thing.

I think.

Assuming that I can get through my mum's nagging for these 2 years in one piece.

Bahahahahahahaha.

Why do I not have liberty?

Bahh. I just keep getting banged at for everything. Even a choice of where to study isn't spared either. Dammit.

Simply noooooooooooooooooooooo mood to do anything for the rest of the night. But I do love Yiruma and Kevin Kern, they never fail to keep my head swaying to nothingness. Bahahahahahahaha.

Talking about Cristiano Ronaldo and Portsmouth yesterday, I nearly forgot tonight will be the Community Shield match. No Cristiano Ronaldo, no Michael Carrick, no Owen Hargreaves, no Wayne Rooney, no Ben Foster, no Louis Saha. GAHH. Everybody, just give the ball to Tevez and just pray that he will hammer it home. Bahahahahahaha.

Aww man, it's been nearly a week since I touched this place. Gahh. How horrible.

We are all having a 4 day break from school, right? Yesterday's half-day from National Day celebrations, today's actual things, tomorrow's Sunday, and Monday's break because National-Day-fell-on-a-weekend-and-therefore-the-following-weekday-is-a-day-off. But I'm not soooooooooooo not enticed by the various opportunities it offers. Gahh.

I daresay these few days have been hectic yet fun at the same time? Deadlines to rush out, parents nagging like crazy over mundane issues, sister PMS-ing over even more mundane issues, bahh. But I get to know the whole world a whole lot better. Bahahahahahahaha.

Maybe all I need is just a touch of inspiration. Then I'll do what Cristiano Ronaldo did in his match against Portsmouth last season, just like the commentator aptly puts it:

"Whatever he touches turns into gold!"

Bahahahaha.

I don't think there's anything I can't face.

Ain't it right?

I really thank Chai Li, Louise and Audrey for helping me see things in a different light over these days. (:

For now, I guess I will just leave things for what they are, and where they come from. Bahahahahahahahahaha.