“It's all about you.”

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Emotions.

I am a temperamental person, really.

Yeah, well, a lot of mixed feelings and emotions today.

Anger, grief, happiness, shock, all in one.

Yeah, and this was one of those days in which I was nearly taken in by others to skip French lessons at Bishan.

Really, what have I done to displease the heavens?

I don't get it. Why must the gods toy with me? Why am I ruled by parents who want me to come out best in everything I do, while people around me simply take life as easily as they can?

Really, sometimes I just wish to close my eyes and freefall into nothingness, with no worries and no pressure.

Home is just one of those devilish places on earth. For school, maybe a little better, but not always.

But, well, at least I know who's got my back when I am just thoroughly depressed.

Misery.

Hey, I used this word for a couple of times already.

But do permanent things ever change? Of course not.

It's been quite a while since I had a day of real peace. Like, the ones in which I really fancy in a lot of Final Fantasy games, the ones whereby everything is possible, and nobody is worried about anything at all.

It's just so unfair. I ask myself, why can't anyone change our destiny? Why can't we make a difference to our lives?

As I always say to everyone, I am just a two-faced person. Behind that comical look of pure innocence hides a face that might probably haunt you for the rest of your life. Yes, you might laugh at what I am saying, but ask yourself, have you ever stepped into my world and looked at the universe through my eyes?

So here I am, stuck in this damn dilemna for nearly 2 years, asking myself what I can do to change all this.

To tell you the truth, nightmares about school are occurring to me recently. I don't know why, nor can I tell you anything about it.

Will peace ever be attained? You might want to experiment it yourself, because looking back at the times we had, I do have a definite answer.

Perseverance.

The longest surviving trait that will continue to exist in the years to come.

Ok, so today wasn't one of the best days of my life.

Cos' with only one damn break in between lessons.

And it's not enough?

And I never had more things on my mind.

So with the orientation for the new intake of Air Rifle members, I never felt more miserable and tired than this.

But something REALLY weird happened today. Yining actually waved at me.

That is theoretically impossible. Isn't she a person who would dao people whom she doesn't know?

Ah well, things change all the time.

Peace.

Ah, so I am back to work once again.

Just came back from NACLi camp a couple of days ago. A hell lotta stuff happened there, some really interesting photos taken, some really interesting quotes mentioned there too. Heh, if you want more details, approach me anytime, and I MIGHT consider telling you about it.

Anyways, thanks to this load of people who kept me company through the 3 days.

1. PURPLE COBRAS!! Whoo.
2. Kevin
3. Priscilla
4. Kenny
5. Thomas
6. Keith
7. The Jupadongs
8. The ZZZs
9. The Hooligans
10. The Course B peeps
11. And all those whom I forgot to mention

Well, perhaps I was wrong to regret my choice to come to VIP. Because there are a hell load of reasons that make my stay in VJC for that extra 2 years worthwhile.

To all those out there reading this, thanks so much. You won't regret helping me in one way or another. I promise you that.


Fatigue.

The first day to experience a full day out of the home.

With almost no space to breathe.

Besides lunch and a break after the main schedule today, I have almost no time for myself, with GSE feedback and stupid French lessons at Bishan. Why the hell must they shift it back??

But can I blame anyone? Not at all.

Beginning.

So the new year has begun its pace.

I would not expect anything special this year.

Yup, you heard it. I expect nothing out of the ordinary to happen to me this year.

Because people like me never change. And think, just how many people are just like me?

Farewell.

One last word, for the year 2006.