“It's all about you.”

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Hard-heartedness.

That's all my family ever possessed.

They push me forward as if there's no tomorrow.

Yes, maybe it's my fault too.

I am unable to shine, unable to do anything my family wants.

I am trying very hard to stand up, but everyday life seems to just press me back down again.

I am really tired of trying to stand up for 15 and a half years already.....

Really.....

Really tired.....

The world is two-faced.

That's what we humans ever have.

Two faces, 1 good and another evil.

I can justify that.

I put on a happy front, joking and laughing and making people happy. Behind the scenes, I am just another loser crying out loud to the skies.

The world is changing.....

Many can't keep up.....

I walked this road to nowhere.....

Hoping that I might see you there.....

Yes, you.....

Ease the misery inside me.....

I am lost.

I feel no love, nothing in this world.

I am crying when I am posting this.

I don't know why, I just feel like stopping in my tracks, right here, right now.

The skies are dark for me, even though the sun is blazing overhead.

There is no destination for me in this world to reach..........is there?

There was this one person......

He stood there......

Face as blank as ever......

Facing the whole world......

Without a clue what he should do......

In a minute, he walked out onto the main road......

Without noticing there was a car coming right into him......

Will there ever be this angel who would rescue him......

I just hope there is......

Nuts, I am a criminal on the loose.

I just realised that I forgot to pay my bus fare when I was travelling back to Tampines from Yishun after Air Rifle training at the very last part, when the bus was going to pull over at the interchange!!!

You know how that happened?

Kevin and I were standing at the bus stop at Yishun, and the bus came. Many people were boarding the bus, so me and Kevin go seperated slightly, with Kevin in front and me behind. I had this misfortune to syand behind this woman who was talking on the phone and carrying some long bag (I didn't know what was inside). I thought she had her wallet out, so that she can tap on the EZ-Link reader and move, but she suddenly stopped in front of the driver and slowly unzipped her handbag and taking out her wallet!!! This caused the bloody bag to hit my *ahem*.

Goodness, how Singaporeans move.

Anyway, she took like 30 seconds before she could actually MOVE to the back of the bus, and there I was, following her to join Kevin, without paying nothing for my trip.

I talked to Kevin throughout the whole ride, thinking that I have paid, until the last part, when I reached into my left pocket for my handphone, to find something plastic beside it.

I thought my EZ-Link card was in my wallet??!!

Woots.

Well, that's 45 cents to my iPod Nano stash funds. LOL XD